Friday, April 16, 2004
... stupid blog.. gort word limit de issit? delete awaymy stuff for wad?
as i was saying.. my life is in total shit... i keep thinking of how i wanna die.. today alot of things happen.. mr han and ms koh both not happy wioth me... mr han think i use him as excuse to get awayfrom lit class... all my fault.. my fault.. i am so useless...cry and cry.. dunno how to do anything.. why? haix... dunno wad to do now.. should i go lit tomolo? tomolo gort test.. i think i must clear these things up le... so messy le... so sad... so depressed... keep crying for no good reason.. should i drop lit anorts? but it is my best subj.. without it i may not get to a good jc... then cannot go U.. then no degree.. then no future... then no violin...i feel so sick suddenly.. want to die so much.... cryuntil eye pain.. now type until hand pain..very sian half.. dunno what to do le.. what can i do? i feel so useless.. nobody understands me... no one... we always take pple for granted? do we? or do we not? yes we do.. only when they are gone we will then regret.. i feel so stupid.. why he dun want me? why i come this skool nothing good happen to me? why?
maybe Jesus wants to punish me... for all my sins... all my lies.. thats why mr han think i am a liar now... a useless fool, i am.. God... please help me... forgive me.. and HELP ME!!~... amen.
Valerie RANTED. 10:21 PM
