Tuesday, December 07, 2004

there is something seriously wrong with me. i think its going to happen all over again. me " i dn give a damn to anyone"attitude. and surprisingly, i dun care. i dun care the shit abt anyone anymore. going to be insensitive and everything. dun blame me. i'm going to show my super black face to everyone.

my heart is ripped into shreds. it feels like it's being pulled down by bricks. so heavy.. so uncomfortable. am i being too sensitive? maybe i should start studying soon. get over and done with it until end of sec4. feel damn fucked up and everything. what happened to my life? i'm supposed to be studying and playing.. not "band"ing.. not going to care a shit abt this le... dulan. after i'm done with wad im supposed to do, thats it. going to heck care.feel so cranky now. and so easily pissed off.. make other pple pissed. wtf. wadever thingy u all organise, i now also sian half le. wad is this? how come liddat? now i feel that i muz obey my parents. i owe them my life. i hate being rebellious and everything. where is my sense of righteousness? can i tell the diif from right and wrong? this sucks.

falling in love was a big mistake. shouldn't have given a damn abt this in the first place. maybe the fact that i existed is a great flaw that God didn't manage to correct. am i right? somehow i feel so irritated. so useless. damn.



Valerie RANTED. 1:26 AM

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