Wednesday, March 30, 2005
Mindless Musings of the DaySometimes we don't really know when to begin. What to begin with, perhaps. it's 12.39pm now on a wednesday.my second day of being mia in school. finished a 360 paged novel in 2 hours- something i failed since last year. Dinner for Two, by Mike Gayle. Not the usual trashy novel or the 'book without a plot'. it's actually interesting, for once.And then i start to think.
What do i actually want in my life? Ah well.. most people my age wouldn't know what to do when we leave school. Let's face it.
i can't do basic algebra.i'm hopeless at speaking what i grew up listening to.i do not have the qualifications to take up music at a higher level.my vocabulary is limited to that of a 13 year old.what can i do?each and everyday i tell myself "i'm gonna do this. Later."
each and everyday i tell myself "i can do it."
can i?until today, i realise that there are not many options made available to people like me.
i'm really disappointed in myself. what has happened?
the people i could relate myself to when i was 12 tell me that O levels is nothing to them.
i could have been one of them. am i supposed to regret and try to turn back time?
there were times when i've fallen deep into depression.
there were times when i told ones around me that depression is a no-good.
to think that a clown like me can come up with such words of wisdom.
oh well. at least i can do differentiation and get them all wrong in the end.
Valerie RANTED. 12:31 PM
