Wednesday, May 18, 2005

you make me look down on you. self-pity. is that the only thing u are capable of? i have been blind all along..i shouldn't be affected in the first place. or should i? finally i have seen through that thick facade of yours. all the while i had been mourning for a friendship that could never have lasted all along. was it for status? or am i someone for you to laugh at? you tell others that i have disappointed you, and all the while i have been keeping quiet. have you realised that it's the other way round? you have changed. for better or for the worse, you know yourself best.
i've heard from others. and i can tell you for sure. the problem lies not with me, but with you. maybe you were being too sensitive. what was meant as words of advice were taken as words to spite at you. do you trust me in the first place? for once in my life i believed i have met a bosom friend. i hate to disappoint myself. you had other motives.
these 4 years of friendship. all gone because of that fateful phone call? i don't believe so.
had i not called you that night, i wouldn't have known.
self-pity.
i admit defeat to your amazing capability of dousing yourself with it.
you make me wince with disgust.


Valerie RANTED. 1:56 AM

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