Saturday, June 11, 2005
we got so much homework.
SO MUCH
haix.. today did some..
a little bit here..
a little bit there..
sianz.
yanting's staying over at church camp today.. i didnt go..
haix.. wa lao.. my life has become so sian.
everyday also have to worry about homework.
MY LIFE REVOLVES AROUND HOMEWORK..
HAHHAHAHHA..
oh.. i'm getting fatter btw.. heehee..
anyway.. u want another wishlist?
ok.
its.. 8 more days... it sounds so stupid.. me doing a countdown..
1. perfect score for o levels.
2. mp3 player
3. nice looking sneakers.
4. treadmill
5. anything huggable
6. huggable boyfriend.. hahhaa..
7. billionaire bf
8. more time for homework.
9. something that will force me to do homework (eg. a robot?)
10. help in studies?
tada..
anyway.. it has been kinda depressing for me since the beginning of this year. it sucks to have the entire class faring better than u.. but wad to do? i'm the "even ITE also dun want u" standard..
JC? it seems like a dream.. fairytale that will never come through.. ppl ard me go for the DSA thing.. i dun even dare. i'm nowhere near 20.. go there xia suey. maybe i'm not stupid.. its just that i'm not hardworking enough. i need to study harder.. there are pple ard me pushing me.. but its not enough. i'm TOO LAZY. i wince at the sight of maths. i get writer's block when i come face to face with eng/lit. science is.. well.. do-able..
i want to study.
i really do..
do i have the self discipline to do so?
mummy's sick.. fever and everything.. keep asking her to eat medicine and fruits..
i love my parents so much.. and yet i disappoint them time and again.
even if i convince myself that i'm not stupid..
come to think of it again..
i'm not stupid, am i?
Valerie RANTED. 7:45 PM
